Full Circle Moments

Today I was faced with a full circle moment. One of those rare occasions where you start out at point A end up at point Z and then end back up at point A with an entirely new perspective. I had a conversation with my 10 year old son that I wish my mom and I would have had when I was 10.

In an ideal world, my childhood would have been Betty Crocker perfect: joyous, wonderful, full of more happy moments and rare instances of sadness. However, that's not the life I lived and because of that I swore my children would NEVER experience or feel the way I did when I was 10.

Then I realized: we all have CHOICES. Good, bad, hard, sad, whatever. Everything we do, is ultimately a result of a choice. I choose what time I get up in the morning, I choose what outfit to wear, how to do my hair, if I'm going to start my day in a good mood or drag my feet wishing I'd have another hour in bed. I choose if I'll take my kids to school or put them on the bus. I choose if I'll put my arms around them and tell them that I love them so that they can start their day knowing that "I love you" were the last words they heard me say until they see me again. Choices are powerful, they're life changing.

So my full circle moment is this:

At the age of 10, my son knows that I'm far from perfect. He knows I make mistakes, he knows I had choices to make in my 20's that changed my life profoundly. He knows the nitty gritty (not all the details) but knows enough to know that I'm human.

And even after all that knowledge; he said he loves me more now than he loved me earlier today and he knows now, that I love him more in return that he ever realized before.

I made a choice today, one that paid off in a VERY big way cause it brought me even closer to the first boy I loved unconditionally and who in turn loved me unconditionally too.

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